I’ll be your lighthouse when you’re lost at sea
And I will illuminate everything
No need to be frightened by intimacy
No, just drop your fear and come running to Me
I went back to church for the first time in about eight months. It was good. The message was good, the worship was good, the fellowship afterwards was also really nice. Jesus was there, and I had to remember that Holy Spirit was in it. Take what you take. Instead of poking holes in everything.
Right now I think I’m missing my family at home, and feeling overwhelmed because of all the people I met so I’m not in a hurry to go back.
I think I’ll ease into it. Institutional church is a real thing and it can be a web. I just thank Papa that he’s about that ‘working things out for my good’ life.
Sometimes I wonder what I’m even doing here. Far from the people that mean the world to me.
I don’t know if I’m ready for this adult thing. I want my mum.
Went to the royal pirates fansign tonight. I have no words really.
I was late. I didn’t realise how long it would take to get to Gimpo Airport.
I was adrenalined up by the time I got there and got in the line and went blank when it was my turn. James was first, and he recognised me from After School Club, which I was not expecting. He is the sweetest ever. Ever. Like my respect for him went through the roof.
Next was moon-pirate. Moon is my fave. He’s an enigma I think. And he said my name is interesting. :))) I may have gushed. I also found myself fumbling over worda, and the last time that happened was when I was going through a fire tunnel. Goodness.
Sooyoon was last. He is such a doll. He didn’t remember me even though I was his teammate, and all he wrote was “yeah!” Because that was the feeling he got. I told him I’ve outgrown autographs so I’d prefer a message but he can write yeah if he likes. And he gave me a high five. Adore.
I now understand why people go to fansigns. It’s real. Korean fans are on a level though! Some girls were pretty much screeching at times, completely overcome. I think this is why bands can’t really have proper meet and greets.
Suzie was at the fansign, it was really nice to see her again. We went to Coreanos, this Mexican fusion restaurant that was really good. I think I’ll be frequenting it.
Then me and Bre walked back to the dorms, singing Nsync at the top of our lungs. Drunk on the goodness of Life.
It was a great night.
I miss reading.
I miss Kdramas that I could be watching right now but it’s probably a good thing since they’re distracting.
I miss people.
Even family members who can be annoying at times, but I had the luxury of saying so.
I feel like I’m not very good at maintaining relationships on social media (whatsapp, ktalk, facebook, email). I’m much better in person, I promise.
I’m across the world in a different timezone. Getting to do something that not everyone does. I’m super thankful.
I just miss home.
Yay! I wasn’t awkward!!! And moon is far too good-looking, even though I felt he was a bit offish.
Sooyoon though. Too much everything. Also, James.
esprit-de-kyung I hope so. Otherwise I’m going to go hide under my blankets lol. Thanks for the vote of confidence!!! Now reply to my message!! :p